Weekends have been the toughest when it comes to keeping my head in the healing game. I’m friends with a lot of awesome athletes and every weekend all my feeds are flooded with race reports, long run photos and stories of my friends pushing their bodies and celebrating life.
Right now I can’t do that. And (most of the time) that’s okay. This period of my life is just part of my journey. And it’s awesome.
Last night I realized something different that is bothering me: I don’t have anything to look forward to.
I’m all about goals. I keep a packed race schedule and have things to look forward to with work, friends and travel. But for now that list has been wiped clear. “Complete my second Ironman October 22, 2011,” was on my goals, but it’s not an option anymore.
Instead of getting sad, I got planning.
I updated my goals. All of them. Now there are plans for walking, paying off medical bills, blogging more… and possibly even moving to a different city. My career goals got switched up. And, baby goals were pushed back a little.
There’s nothing like a broken pelvis and loss of independence to quench baby fever. I need to get my body back and push it to the limits for a few more years before I give it up again. (I’ve been able to relate to pregnant friends so much since this injury: foggy mind, bladder control, lack of sex, changing body, nausea… difference is they get a baby at the end. I just get to walk again.)
Here are my updated fitness goals. Remember, the surgeon said I would start walking again in the middle of December. I don’t think he knows I’m an Ironman. We do things differently.
I walk unassisted by October 31, 2011.
I run by November 21, 2011.
I complete the Disney Marathon with Ryan January 8, 2012.
I complete an unassisted headstand by March 1, 2012.
I maintain a 9 minute per mile pace for a 10 mile run by June 1, 2012.
I complete my second Ironman triathlon by October 25, 2012.
I complete a 50 mile race by June 1, 2015.
When have you not listened to what’s “normal” and accomplished something big? Share what you’re most proud of in the comments!