I’m angry, frustrated and generally pissed off.
Seventy-three days ago I was running 18 miles on the Blue Ridge Parkway and through downtown Asheville. I was free, I was determined and good grief I was strong.
The next day I crashed my bike and put everything on hold.
For ten weeks I’ve canceled my races and set my eyes on new ones, thrown out training plans, watched my friends hit their running goals and practiced my patience knowing that one day I’d be able to run again.
I’m scheduled to be able to start running again in less than two weeks, but honestly I don’t know how I can make it that long. I’ve reached my breaking point.
Running is my stress relief. It’s freedom on my own two legs. I never felt bad after a run. I never felt fat after a run. Running was about goals and taking time for myself and choosing to get out there even when it was too hot, too cold or I was too tired. I ran in the dirt, in the sand, in the snow, in the rain, over mountains and down hills. I knew which day of the week it was by my runs- the whole week culminating to Friday’s long run. I knew it was a new day once I sweat my butt off on the pavement.
Call it a passion. Call it an addiction. I need running.
Why do you run?
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i run because i feel so dang good about myself and my body afterwards. that sense of accomplishment is definitely addictive.
Hi,
I just found your blog! I know exactly how you feel. I recently had knee surgery, and I am making a come back with running, it has been 6 months and I can only manage about 5 minutes before I have to stop. It is so discouraging! I know I am not the only one, but you are so close to being able to run! Go you! Good luck!
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you spoke the words on my mind and heart. i’ve been walking a few days now and went to yoga tonight – it was SO great to flow and feel alive but so sad to know how much i’ve lost in my right leg.. and to know that soon i’ll be facing the same weakness in my left leg. it’s really sad to know how much strength i’ve lost and will lost. and then to see friends and twitter and blogs abuzz with race recaps is really hard.
anyway, keep your head up!! these days before you can run may feel slow but will pass quickly.
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Running seems to really have inspired you the bond you have with it can be witnessed clearly. I love running as well and wish you luck and good health with your recovery.
Now would be a good time to find a new stress reliever. Don’t risk re-injuring yourself and being out even longer b/c you “can’t” wait.
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