It’s not often that I feel strong. As much as I love sweating, I don’t believe in myself much when it comes to performing well. I can perform; I just doubt my ability to do well. To cover this I shy away from working out with others and never boast my times. On anything.
Except in CrossFit. Except for last night.
I was having an ‘off’ day and went to hot power yoga after work to kick my bad mood. It worked. Just to be sure that icky mood was really gone I headed to the 7pm WOD at CrossFit Firebase.
The gym was packed. Sometimes a packed box is intimidating; I can doubt myself in the middle of all these people who know what they’re doing- who can lift more, squat more, pull higher and run faster than me.
Last night I didn’t feel any of that. Our box is finally feeling home to me. I made new friends and got excited for the WOD.
First we found our unbroken max for double unders, push-ups, pull-ups- and how many squats we could complete in 60 seconds. I completed 12 single unders (I blame it on not using a jump rope until I was an adult!), 5 girl push-ups (hangs head), 10 assisted pull-ups and 40 air squats in 60 seconds. They will improve. They will improve.
50 walking lunges
30 game standard push-ups (lifting your hands off the floor at the bottom of every push-up)
I am usually nervous running in a group: what if I’m slower than everyone else? what if I can’t keep up my breathing? what if I have to slow down only to be passed by all the people I just passed?
The timer went off and twenty of us started running the course at the same time. I felt myself holding back so I passed one person. Then I couldn’t help but pass another. And another. Then I got a little competitive! I was one of the first back from the run. I pushed hard with my lunges and push-ups and kicked butt in the next two runs. I knew I only had one chance so I asked a lot from myself.
For the first time I cared what time I had. I didn’t want to always be the weak one; I wanted to beat others!
I finished in 25:30 and felt so proud for the rest of the night!
What makes you feel strong? When was the last time you decided to be great?