Everything is relative so sometimes I forget that some may see running 50 miles as paying to run in circles for longer than the average workday just to get a participation medal at the end.
And it is.
But when I think of tomorrow’s race, I hardly think of the mileage. I think of how I dropped out two years ago and how sad that was. I think of my mental strength and if I can overcome the voice that says I can’t do it for ten hours. I think of feeling on top of the world after crossing the finish line, falling into Richard’s arms and knowing I pushed myself to the limits and won.
“I tell our runners to divide the race into thirds. Run the first part with your head, the middle part with your personality, and the last part with your heart.” – Mike Fanelli
Hearing about the upcoming 50, people often ask why I do it. Sometimes I tell them that I want to see just how far I go. Also, that I don’t want to see what I’d be like without spending so much energy on running.
Those things are true, but the biggest reason is that I love it. I love the commitment of the training, the community of runners and getting real with the very depths of who I am and how I handle when things get hard.
“You only ever grow as a human being if you’re outside your comfort zone.” -Percy Cerutty
The biggest thing I’m going into tomorrow with is “I can do this.” Even if my body hurts for a while, even if I’m bored and tired, even if I don’t want to go on, I can do this.
See you on the other side!
“What matters is not necessarily the size of the dog in the fight – it’s the size of the fight in the dog.” -Dwight D. Eisenhower